after two weeks of having this feeling like something was wrong with this relationship i finally broke it off last night. things will never change if nothing happens or if the other person refuses to take action. i am sick of being patient, loving and caring toward someone that will only be nice to me when it's profitable or when it benefits him. his mom even told me and i have realized this for a long time that he has cheated on me with his game and yes he has. i stayed with him for two weeks in loneliness. we were so close yet so far, stuck in a 10x10 room and it felt like miles away. his focus was on his game and mine thinking about things we can do together to have fun, all shot down because he is obsessed with this game and refused to leave the room.
he is irritable from lack of sleep and when i urge him to go to sleep he gets angry. either way i lose. i cannot make him happy and he is unable to make me happy when he is like this.
i give up. love hurts, but it shouldn't hurt like this. i respect myself better than to date someone who is selfish and only cares for himself.
part of me knows that this is for the better. but as everyone girl knows when u break up there is this sense of hope that he will say sorry and ask for you back. honestly, i still have that lingering hope. for him to come with flowers and say that he is sorry. but the man's pride is his downfall and the contributor of my sadness.
i love you....despite all of your flaws, but it doesn't seem that you can love me the same way. that is the harsh reality of things.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
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