Released and Moving forward

you're absolutely right, you are a jackass. if you think us arguing about your jackass-ness is worst than all of your exes cheating on you , then i have nothing more to say. i am sorry that i cannot fake a smile for the world to see like you can. and if you can sit there and brag about how you have made your mother and your sister cry and why i am not an exception, then GOODBYE you are the WEAKEST link. GOOD RIDDANCE.

this was what i wrote on facebook earlier, realizing that by writing this i am stooping down to his level, something that i never want to do. an eye for an eye is exactly how he operates and i have never been that way, until i have met him. this relationship has a negative impact on me and thus it is only logical that i move on. if he can sit there and asks, "if the last six months has been so horrible then why are u still with me" then i really have nothing more to say. obviously love does not equate to anything for him but sex, presents and money. the commitment, the loyalty, being there day after day despite the pain means nothing. he try to say that he has done his part to remedy the situation because he went out of his way to invite me to dinner, bullshit, texting is not going out of ur way.

when someone walk away crying as a result of your action, if you really love them and wanted them, you dont let them go. "watch your habits for they become character, watch your character for they become your destiny" (anonymous) funny how you quote something but dont understand what it says.

cried my heart out, slept for 12 hours, now ready to live again. the last two weeks was splendid, until he re-entered my life. yes i still love him with all my heart, but u cant force someone to love you back. it takes effort and dedication, something that he doesnt believe in. he thinks his texting is an adequate manifestation of love but i beg to differ.

life is falling into places for me, the puzzles are fitting together and my hard work is graciously rewarded. it is raining outside, god is crying for me. though tears are not flowing down my cheeks, i am crying on the inside, which is manifested in each rain drops that is falling. soothing, relaxing, and comforting to know, someone sympathizes with my pain.

someone once told me "pain is weakness leaving the body" i am getting stronger.